lisbet (aidenraine) wrote,
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Things people do when they're alone

They're filming Batman Begins II in Chicago right now. And by "they're" I mean "someone" and by "Batman Begins II" I mean "oxymoron."

Ok, so whenever I pick up a kitchen knife (usually to put it away after cleaning it, as I do not do much cooking), I have to pretend for a moment that I am a scary murderer. Maybe it's that I was obsessed with the Halloween movies as a junior high girl.

I lift up the knife and pretend to stalk something for a moment, and then I freak myself out and put it away. It always seems a bit too close to actually turning into a homicidal maniac, just raising the knife up.

I think it's linked to this conversation I had with j. years ago. Paraphrased.

Me: When you get near the edges of buildings do you ever freak yourself out by thinking: "I'll just jump." You know, envisioning the whole process of falling and splatting, and fearing your impulse control isn't strong enough to keep you from spontaneously doing it?

J: WTF?

It's also like how I always have the urge to blurt out the most horridly inappropriate things, like... er PENIS when I'm in polite company. I think that's linked to having a social anxiety disorder though.
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